Time & Change: interchageable?

It's been such a long time since I've written.  Well, I guess I should start again since I've got a million things in my head to talk about.  I'm not quite sure where to even begin but I guess I'll just start rambling, similar to how I always did.

It's funny how time flies,  the last post I had was in October.  So much has changed, I guess in some good ways and others bad.  I guess the good way is that I've learned much more about myself and people around me, the bad way...well I don't really like some of the things I learned.  I find it extremely funny how fickle are, and I speak from personal experience.  One day you decide that you do or do not want something and the next, when you have or no longer have them in your possession, you start to doubt, miss, and even wonder if you've made the right or wrong decision.  Life is full of surprises and events transpire within seconds of one another revealing more uncertainty than previously thought.  It's rather interesting to reminisce....

A year ago, I wouldn't be the person that I am today.  A year ago, and I remember it like it was yesterday, I was a complete antithesis of myself.  In one year, I've done a complete 180 that if I were to look back on the One-Year-Ago me, I'd probably say, "Wow, what a dumb bitch."  Needless to say, many people probably feel that way.  I guess I'm just in a little bit of a state of shock.  I find myself nowadays thinking about my decisions and my rationale.  How does one justify a good decision from a bad decision?  A at-the-time spontaneously good decision turned later-in-the-future "Man, I effed up."  How does that work?  I guess it comes with time and change.  The more time that passes, the more time you have to reflect on your own desires/actions/decisions and sometimes, those self- reflections don't always necessarily favor your past choices.  With that said, I guess I can understand why people are fickle and what they want/don't want change.  Why are people so indecisive?  Why can't they make up their mind at what they want?  Why can't I make up my mind on what I want, or don't want?  I find now that I say one thing but my emotions take another spin altogether.  Emotions are so bothersome, they make you do stupid things, feel ridiculous spur-of-the-moment intensities that are shortlived, and in the end, they just leave you upset.  Would it be better if we rid our emotions?